If I'm being real, getting in front of the camera is a love/hate issue for me. I desperately want to have pictures of me with my kids. I want to treasure everything about each day as it speeds by and I hold on for dear life. I want to be part of the memory. But then, I look at a picture of myself, still holding on to "baby weight" 9 months later and it's hard. It's hard not to be critical and sad. It's hard not to be mad at myself for letting that weight take over my joy of photographs. It's hard to really *want to be in the pictures.
But then I took this class by the amazing Lisa Tichane called Capturing Joy. She talks about how her mom passed when she was 13 and she doesn't have a single picture of her and her mom together. It was a real eye opener. I needed to get over myself.
So, I've embarked on a selfie journey, one that includes pictures I'm not horrified to share online. I've canned over 200 in the past several days, but I've also been figuring out what works. I hope that in the year to come, if nothing else, I will learn to enjoy being in front of the camera too, if not for appearances sake, for the joy of knowing that one day, my kids will look back at them and they won't see what I see, they will just see "mom".
I took this one with a timer JUST before a storm rolled in. It was a desperate moment and not the best shot but I love that we all have these crazy looks on our faces!
The next day I wanted to try again! So, a remote in hand...I dragged everyone outside one more time. *Note, The cat by my head is NOT our cat. Never has been, never will be, despite his best efforts.
You would have thought I'd have had a sign made up for weeks for her to hold. I mean, isn't that what photographers do? Apparently not this one. Thankfully, her classroom did not let me down.
So, I might have failed my kid with the whole "First day of kindergarten" sign but at least I bought her some awesome rain boots and a matching coat so we could go play in the rain!
More to come this weekend!! I'm getting caught up. I've been shooting, but editing and posting is a different story.